September 27, 2003  
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This is so weird... Tahoma like font... its odd.
I'm sitting here, and i've just been intently playing Jones in the fast lane (a great old school

game by Sierra) and I haven't smoked anything (much)
It really has gotten to the stage, where do I even care about the guilt placed on me for smoking

so much, so often? School holidays are coming up... one guess what that means for me. Oooh yeah

thats right. 2 week session. Woop yeah! but still, i'm overdoing it abit.. I was in a really

shitty mood with rene in the city, its his day before his birthday, so he was sposed to feel

good, rarara.But I was shitty cuz I had a cold and I couldn't score. DAMMIT
Finally I got some off one of Rob Manley's dodgy mates, Luke... But his shit is gooooooooooood.

and with my pipe? And the way I rip it?

yes, it is the good shit. right here, right here
(that should be made into a song)

note to self: read stoner writings when you can to reflect back on *that* state of mind.
Anyway I shall go, I have another cone to have


****

A few hours later. Well, I saw the play, (the wiz) and it was pretty fantastic. Will kinda bought

it down for me, cuz he hates productions but I thought it was totally fab. Probably abit too

unrealistic for Will, but oh well I spose thats his problem. Its strange.. I'm attracted to that

boy... the quick learning quick speaking smart pom. But I'm not physically attracted to him... it

only seems in conversations that he'll let little hints to say he likes me.

like one time he goes "Oh theres a girl here I like" after interrogation, it wasn't a girl from

the play... who else did he know who was here?

also another time, we were talking about lifts home and he said "nah i'll just catch the bus"

like he was done with being around me, (i'm annoying) or just ... seemed weird, and he said "I'm

predisposing" ( i really have to find out what that means)
and yeah... i can't imagine myself having sex with him.. but I do'nt know. he has really nice

skin, and is just so interestign to talk to.. even if he does remind me a hell of a lot like alex

darbyshire. its kinda scary... also as alex is out of my life, i get attracted to the new smart

stoner kid on the block

****
Ahhh, old memories of way back when I used to be forced to listen to this cd and many others

(mostly of my hated simply red)

***
well tongiht was fun. My right leg is warming down as i was next to the heater cleaning out my

pipe, an almost daily routine before I have a sesh. Tonight was interesting, kate sleeth fully

abused me, and I got really upset, drunk a fair bit of wine at La Porchetta's, made myself throw

up in the toilets, got Kate H upset, went home, smoked a j with Mum who was on the piss again

(Boyd's comments about that really jabbed me, seriously)
and dad yelled at me, as I caressed my mixing tin, as I have just chopped up the rest of my

weed... the weed in the j was fingerchopped, but this is gonna be gooooooooooooood. ahh the sweet

musky smell of doing something you know you shouldn't be doing, and tumbling down the rabbit hole

of sanity and straightness. Oh how I love to be stoned. I kept sayign "I like being stoned"

yesterday, it was kind of freaky in a way, I'm sure of it. Well I have atleast 3 cones worth... I

shall go smoke now. tata.

Its really quite funny
I havent' smoked yet. And finally a play of conscious is running through my head, it makes me

think, should I do this? Will this ever stop? Will it lead onto harsher drugs? etc etc.
But at the same time, a real rush of rage goes through my body... the raspy voice box, the aching

back, the pained shoulders, the salty dried tears on my face. I just don't care anymore. Thats

the basic truth of it, I really don't care. What is the point anymore? I'm trying so hard to

please work and school, and I don't have any time for myself. This is my only pastime. Let me

have it. Its the only way I can escape. And if I put myself in a positive frame of mind, it

should be ok. But its really odd, before after I smoked with Mum, I found it exhilerating to

'dob' her in to Dad, and to start confrontation with people, whether I'm involved or not. She's

too pissed now to even realise, and I put some strong bud in there.

I'm smiling right now.

***

Just smoked a full cone, not ripped it though like I normally do with pipes (supposedly)
waiting for it to kick in.
ooh i just shivered.
hehe
i'll wait till soon I have the munchies, and I have half a cheesecake.

****

no munchies yet, but
Whoah, total silence there for a second. I'm gonna turn on music and right stoned album reviews.

YAY FOR ME!!

Oooh an album for that funky funk jazz music is.
Dave K gave me this. It starts off with a solid bassy pipe beat, playing funny little tunes,

going a bit faster, inserting a drum beat.
In comes piercing a strong weirded-out guitar/black church organ, and somewhere a clap. This

takes good influences of swing's off beat\ culture, the three main players, the guitar and the

bassy beat and the drum beat. SOon trumpets enter and play well with the music giving it an up

beat.

Ahhh the roots of soul, funk and jazz, (as well as swing and ska) are like gods, to all forms of

rhytmn, seeing it as sensual. It's always been kind of sensual, the bronx, etc.

Trumpets start echoing through bad equipment like the guitar was.

****
EYECHECK: pretty red
****

ends with a beeping sound and cosmic fading.

What about that munchie? mmm feels good. not what i wanted to say.

******

Second track lots of use of church organ being distorted in fast raging pace.
End of second track makes me me think how stoned can I feel.
Very urban street like jazz, its great. Keeps that classic feel.
third track opens up with weird surroudn sound airplane coming closer to ground, scary and

attention seeking intro... goes on to old guy's badly recorded speech so you pay attention...

while keeping a reasonably steady 4:4 beat *Yeah... I know music WOOP), occasionally little

woodwind pipes beoing blown out of proportion.Great bass riff by itself and faint drumbeat,

besides snare.
Keep on tracking the story, its meaning about a guy travelling places, talking about Phoenix,

etc.

Weird Austin Powers like bass play that swings up and down the registar.
Swings in and out during whole song, basically the beat is smooth, but the offbeat is strong

enough to keep you off beat partially, which is not the aim in listening to this... its more

about being able to identify the beat which the offbeats lace around. Thats a great way of jazz

appreciation. Another appreciation method is smoking a pipe to get rid of your troubles. Which I

have done.

Intro of 5 is pretty boring and mindless and too off key... makes me feel dizzy. So here I am

infront of a computer screen. Track 5 really doesn't do it for me, very dissapointing.
Track 6 is a weird jungle beat intro, which slows down and has cosmical arrays of distorted fairy

dust. But it continues to have same beat with stupid off key organ.
Good intro of heavy jungle drums though, sudden drop in other music.

track 7 sounds like someones talking underwater or something... off key, a few tweaks. What the

fuck? this isn't jazz at all, maybe funk.
I've been appreciating funk alot more lately. I really should listen to more jazz music whilst

stoned, it keeps me in this weird beat. I should try to stay in that beat all day, see how

relaxed I feel.
The musician takes you on a journey. I wonder if this would be jewish jazz music. It'd be funny

if it was. Few religious influences, as like Moby. Odd outro, doesn't blend at all. Enter actual

every day sounds like birds singing, and steam train going past.

Track 8 Birds singing again. Weird trippy journey through darky green forest

track 9, short creepy up and down journey.

track 10, more urban and smooth, airline announcement or something. keep smooth beat, every day

song. addictive catch line.. I bet I'll get sick of it soon.
"Ha, I'm female so I can review whoever I want as intensely as I want to."

Track 11. Lots of bass, dropping oddly and egyption rhythm style. Distorted Guitar/Organ. Its

like a really stuffed up group amp or something, but good drums.
how cool would those three chord guitar bits be on that crazy amp.
There sounds like a harmonica in there for abit but maybe not.
The off guitar/organ continues to rampage through a lengthy chunk of the song. It escapes it

andbecomes more long winded notes. Going to a range of 4 in nokia ring tone composing.

Track 12. Oddness intro of distorted guitar. Then samples of people singing and praising or

something. Add a cosmic ping pong of weirdness. This is them. Sounds like small animal attacking.
Its odd. Grinding crap sound.. stuffy amp. More samples. And more little bass beats, maintaing

basic same beat the whole time, with a few added bits. Ends on a strong collection of samples.

Track 13. Just chill, its almost over... just one more song, we're closing up here. Good use of

plain snare drum. Gives a scratching hip hop feel to it. Odd samples and workups and workdowns.

Little congo beat fighting with samples and organ. All in frenzied comic circle. Enjoy your self

discovery through a medium of substances. Thats Alex D for you!
Substances don't create self discovery, brains take self discography.

Track 14. opens as a tv sample of people from crappy b-grade horror film.... then a smooth beat

comes in, but tv show keeps playing as people scream. suddenly goes off. thunder in background.

Wafty swings in and out of play with basic chordings. Kinda creepy and off putting in some bits.

Keeping to the theme of crappy b-grade horror film, of course. Fairy tale bits, interfered with

guitar, and more samples of people talking. Outro, a rad leaving of beat, suddenly turning normal

and possibly pop rock ish. this album shows alot of influence by alot of other music styles, eg,

techno, hiphop, poprock, trance, sampling, fairytale like songs (Think Frontier Psychiatrist)

Arghhhh the crappy un toned turn of the cd changer.

oh whaaaaaaaaaat
its luke's old cd, rock culture... a weird collction of songs I was forced to hear in trips to

Batemans Bay.. but now I'm older and can appreciate it abit, unlike Simple Red, who I will always

hate. Nah this song is too in beat compared to my last hearing.

Ahh, track 3, imitiation rastafarian happy cheery song to soon become sultry urban story.
acting cooooool, said he was a real man
low and behold..
totally smoooth
jonny got a motor, all in rhythm.
Oh lets go drink till the beer rund ries, that goes all boppy chrous and catch.
YOU KNOW THE GIRL YOU WANT IS SUCH A WASTE OF TIME.
Surfy Jamaicans saying "ooooooooh"
JONNY ON THE FREEEEEWAAAAAAAAAAAY
"virginity blown at minimum age bottle of pills and a little on the wild side."
susie's a girl he pays to have sex with... totally fucking randoms.
AMERICAN LIFE IN THE SUMMER TIME it has a sexual connotation.
Tries to just start talking.
Great guitar riff, very smooth and great play of off beat.

Track 4, reminds me abit of powderfinger, very emotionally charged lyrics. great work of basic...

"therapy sessions were barely enough to get over obsessions.
i've been sweet and i've been good till you walked down in my neighbourhood.
TIME BOMB!!! all about a girl coming back to see a guy who still loves her.
i've been living a good life till up to now... you ruined it all
so emo... ahh the tempting vixen.
or it could be about the time bomb on people on drugs.... it sounds very likely and explains

harsh guitar riff emotional meaning.
Needs prescription.. having strange dreams again.
Could be about an ex who came back and hurt a guy very badly.
Good emo work of piano exit merging with drum and crazy guitar riff.

Track 5... WORKING ON IT (great black women back ups)
such guys song with girly peaks. Its a great album this, this compilation will be in second hand

store racks anywhere else. I wonder if it sold well. There's no one that famous on it. Track 6,

very country like song... not very interesting on the ears, except those breaking bits on the

guitar solo

*****

Since Kate's birthday I haven't calmed down, I've been totally erratic. Time for a cone.

-- one cone later --

Its so weird, spending one day off the pot.... and going back on it in a fit of rage. That many

charged emotions... they say drug exeperiences depend on the state of mind you enter them in.

Therefore, if you are a paranoid drug user, your 'trips' will be a bad trip (with amphetamines

and particularly, acid and other hallucingens)
But if you maintain a positive attitude while taking the drug, your trip will be more pleasant.
"Absence makes the hea


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